I had my final day of placement today and my supervisor was giving me a lovely chat about how it was great to have me as a student and I felt myself so unable to thank him for everything he’d done for me. I’ve been called out by my girlfriend for being bad at thanking her for things as well but this time was different. I had a complete bodily reaction like I was had something in my throat that was stopping me speaking. It was a very interesting thing to observe in myself. I was shocked because it also happened when I wanted to thank another person for being really nice to me the whole time as well. I eventually overcame it and thanked both of them but it was very stilted and awkward. I wasn’t able to communicate how I felt, which was really frustrating.
I’ve been trying to think about why I’m now having this issue, I can’t think back to when it changed because I don’t think I’ve always been this way. This is a work in progress and I’ll definitely be thinking on this more.
Harrison Hansford 